Delusions of Grandeur

I didnt really adore and love chris till S2 but even before then I knew he got killed off. Which is why I was prepared for it even though I was really upset about it cause he's SO adorable! I mean at first I didnt care for him but after his episode in S1 and seeing him become more chill and mature in S2, not to mention his devotion to Jal. I just totally fell in love. and then got my heart broken when I saw him die even though I knew it was coming I had no idea I'd be as upset as I was. It hurts especially cause he felt so real, it's not like when people die in other shows to me. I hate that Chris died cause I feel like it was done for drama more than anything and I just wanted him to do well in life! Cause I totally sympathize with feeling like a failure and a fuck up even though his reasons for being apathetic about his life were a little different from mine. Gah I'm gonna get all emo I should stop :( But yeah I think I was only able to just accept it cause I knew it was happening a long way ahead. Something I will never make peace with though was the horrible mind rape the tenth doctor did to donna. I am STILL mad about that! and refuse to watch any further RTD episodes of Who because of it. I mean the character assassination of rose and the mistreatment of martha were bad enough, not to mention the deifying of the doctor but that horrible end for Donna was the last straw. No more Who for me till 2010 (Ok I lie I will totally watch Simm's episodes but...grudgingly!). Anyway I digress.

I will get a box of tissues ready for when I watch the final two eps. I think I'm gonna need it. and I'd like to think Chris will live on in our hearts! and that Joe Dempsie will get alot more tv offers where he plays lovable fuck ups so I can pretend Chris's soul was transported into another reality. and also continue crushing on the actor